Tuesday, 19 January 2010

The day I decided to stop being gay

A minor incident in a barber’s shop last week has helped me to realise that I may no longer be gay. Not a fully fledged homo, anyway; perhaps not even a part-timer who helps the team out when it’s busy. It appears I may be going straight.

I was in Tenterden, the Kentish village where I was brought up and to which I have lately returned, working at a nearby aerodrome as a helicopter pilot. I was waiting my turn for a chatty Latvian to apply the hot towels and razor.

A handsome young dad entered with a small, fair-haired boy at his side. The man took a seat and hoisted the wide-eyed child proudly on to his knee. The first haircut, I speculated inwardly, as an unfamiliar fatherly glow and feeling of mild envy swept over me. I could not tear my attention away from the mirrored reflections.

From time to time, the dad leant forward as they waited and whispered close to his son’s ear, tenderly kissing his fair head. Touching stuff.

But then my eyes lowered and I became transfixed by the sight of the boy’s tiny pink fingers gripping his father’s huge, workman-like fist. And I almost wanted to burst into song.

I think my life changed at that moment. Read more
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1 comment:

Archbeship Anthony said...

Hi John,

I know I am writing to a man but I will try to write across the sexes just to be fair to both.

I have always I have always believed that a person cannot help his or her sexuality the same way they not help what sex they are born as, skin colour or disabilities and conditions, whether visible or invisible.

I personally have believed (certainly since 2007) that people focus their dislike on Gays and Lesbians quite simply to hide their own imperfections.

I have made a comment on the Bishop of Buckingham Blog (Bishop Alan) (which I now follow) about women bishops, I wondered if you wanted to read it. I have my own blog which I am hoping people will read and make comments on. The fact that I now follow the blog of Bishop Alan does not currently show on my blog profile

Many Thanks,

Anthony Tull